Thursday January 25.2024

Dear Self,
I don't remember my body hurting all the time. Did it always hurt like this? 
  Frustrated at all the effort it seems to take to maintain this body. I really thought humanity would have solved the body ache by now. 
 Frustrated and screaming into the void,
Yours truly,
Me.

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