It's been a minute, hasn't it? I sit at my desk today, drinking Rosemary tea, and I don't feel amazing. I feel tired, run down, apathetic, and like I am looking down the ark hole of " why?" I am not even sure why I am writing this. Small things help. Music, I listen to ambiance coffee shops with Jazz on you tube, and enjoy the decaf coffee. Yeah, I started drinking decaf. My brain keeps looking for reasons I don't feel awesome. I worked out pretty hard on Monday. I ran, lifted, and had a lot of steps for my " Outbreak App". The weather is changing. But also, I am tired and frustrated that COVID is still around and I feel unsure about what I am comfortable doing. My brother asks me about how the government is using fear to control us. I just don't have the energy to give a shit about Qanon. Yesterday I posted that if people are pro trump, anti vaxx and anti mask, they can unfriend me. SO far I have 141 friends. The number hasn't