Memoirs of a Tomb Raider

I have been doing a lot of research  on core beliefs. See, we all have em'. The programming we use everyday to make decisions,get things done,achieve our goals and dreams. The rules to our current (and ever changing) identity.  Sometimes they hold us back. Sometimes they are pretty obvious (I hate math) and some are more subtle ( I am afraid of rejection,therefore I am  bit of a perfectionist) I have been through a bit of mental health treatment. I know I have the belief that "I am not good enough" which regularly rears it's head in ways I thought were just my lack of discipline.  Yesterday on Instagram I found a post  https://www.instagram.com/p/CkSdqWgJGZO/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y= How to uncover your subconscious blocks.  I mean, yeah. This. Why have I kept missing ballet class? Why do I have epicondylitis again (limiting my lifting and fitness goals). Do I really have to start identifying as someone who "never misses 2 workouts in a row?" (Not a terrible idea

The last 3 Months have been quite a whirlwind and now, here we are, out of summer and back into fall. I started dancing ballet again, after a sabbatical between the ages of 21-40 with a blip of dancing for 3 months in 2018 that ended with a bum knee. So here we are again. Something has shifted in me so hard, that I had to dance. I signed back up for ballet in January of 2022, taking one class a week, then 2, and signing up for a summer dance intensive with huge plans to get back into company and perform. I have also taken up some hypnosis to help me lose weight and get back into shape( or as I like to say, release fat and build muscle). Spoiler alert, it worked. 5 sessions and I have really started to become who I want to be. Time line: Base weight: 155lbs, 5 ft . Body fat at 28%. January: 1 class of ballet and weight lifting 2x a week :153 lbs February: 2 classes of ballet weight lifting 2x a week: 153 lbs March : 2 classes of ballet and weight lifting 2x a week- started usin