Memoirs of a Tomb Raider

 Good morning beautiful readers.   The last few days have been strange. Feeling strange, Time is strange, it all just feels strange. Maybe it's me, or the pandemic.  Maybe its the weird way the pandemic has made time go faster and slower at the same time.   Friday, this Imgur post really resonated with me. Time, and how I see it  Recently I started to feel a bit lost. I usually just band-aid that shit with busy work, but even that lacks je ne sais quoi . So, most morning, I go through my email and notifications, and NERDFITNESS came up again. I had used their app for 2 years and loved it, recently just fell off the wagon.    But, personal coaching. That sounds scary.  So, I have a  call today at 11. Maybe. I'm still scared. So I am doing it.   Because I am not going to let fear hold me back. Oh wait Its 197 a month.... let me think about that. Well, what HAS worked for me in the past? 1. Surfing Pinterest on Saturday for meal plans.  2. Spending sunday doing meal prep 3. Pre-w

 It's been a minute, hasn't it? I sit at my desk today, drinking Rosemary tea, and I don't feel amazing. I feel tired, run down, apathetic, and like I am looking down the ark hole of " why?"   I am not even sure why I am writing this.  Small things help. Music, I listen to ambiance coffee shops with Jazz on you tube, and enjoy the decaf coffee. Yeah, I started drinking decaf.    My brain keeps looking for reasons I don't feel awesome. I worked out pretty hard on Monday. I ran, lifted, and had a lot of steps for my " Outbreak App".  The weather is changing.  But also, I am tired and frustrated that COVID is still around and I feel unsure about what I am comfortable doing.   My brother asks me about how the government is using fear to control us.   I just don't have the energy to give a shit about Qanon.   Yesterday I posted that if people are pro trump, anti vaxx and anti mask, they can unfriend me. SO far I have 141 friends. The number hasn't