Memoirs of a Tomb Raider

Float On  My first float ( https://www.healthline.com/health/sensory-deprivation-tank#benefits) was February 1st, and it was amazing. I floated for 90 minutes,  and initially, I thought it would be way too long and I would get super bored, but as I settled in, my mind eventually calmed down. via GIPHY    Now this article I attached which explains floating, states one of the side effects are hallucinations. I have not hallucinated. I have relaxed, I have fidgeted, I have worked through problems, I have focused on my breathing and became distracted by the sound of my own heart, but I have yet to hallucinate. Why do I float?      I get overwhelmed when a lot of things are happening, and my anxiety starts to creep up. Daily meditation helps, but this, this helps clear the palette literally and figuratively. I have nothing else to do during those 90 minutes. No distractions, Just me. My thoughts ( which can be intimidating if you are the type of person who stays busy to avoid

This morning, I woke up and started my morning pages ( https://juliacameronlive.com/basic-tools/morning-pages/) and I felt absolutely lost. The last few months I have been really analyzing my life and identifying what I want to focus on, what I WANT to spend my time on. I  like to sit at my computer and drink coffee to warm up to the day. At my computer, I did a quick google search for " purpose " and " passion". Found this gem. http://www.thelawofattraction.com/15-minutes-finding-true-purpose/ It offers a few questions to help guide you to what makes you happy. And as I dug into this topic, I could feel some resistance. Writing this down makes it feel real and offers an opportunity to really look at where I am and am not living my dream. 1. What 5-7 things do you value the most?  A.Learning B.Growth C.Exploration D. Flexibility E.Creativity 2. If nothing changed, what would be your biggest regret? My biggest regret would be letting my fe