Roller derby

I was in roller derby a few months ago, and stopped going, because I didn't feel like it was going anywhere. What was really frustrating? The pace line.....I never went fast enough to stay in it.I encouraged friends to come do derby with me, and now they love it, and I hate myself for quitting. Is the only solution to this screwed up jealousy to come back?
   I am  sure I am already considered  a flake.....I come and go, and feel if I don't have my whole heart and soul in, it's not worth it.....and I just never got any good.....and it took time away from Josh.
What to do? Was I really making any progress?

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